It's a perfect world. :)

ONE THING

Tue, 30 Apr 2013 02:39:07 -0400

I’ve been happy, like really happy, for the last couple weeks. I love making people happy, and if I can make someone happy any means possible, I’ll do it. Because that’s what makes me happy. I know if I can do anything at all, to make someone’s life easier, more enjoyable, in any way, that makes me happy. But there is one thing that annoys me. People constantly saying “Why am I so sad?”, Why can’t I be happy?” and everything. THE WORLD FUCKING SUCKS, EVERYONE KNOWS IT. PEOPLE MANAGE TO GET THROUGH IT. MAYBE IT’S NOT THAT EASY FOR YOU, BUT EMBRACE THE FACT THAT EVEN THOUGH THIS IS YOUR PERSONAL LIVING HELL DAY IN AND DAY OUT, YOU’RE STILL HERE. DO YOU KNOW WHAT THAT IS? IT’S CALLED BEING STRONG, IT’S CALLED HAVING WILLPOWER, THAT EVEN THOUGH YOU MIGHT RATHER BE DEAD, YOU STILL WAKE UP. YOU STILL LIVE EACH DAY. So be happy with the fact that you’re still here. There’s plenty of people who couldn’t deal, who took the easy way out, for their own respective reasons. I’ve had 3 friends kill themselves and I don’t blame them for doing it. The world’s rough but don’t ever let the fact that this place is miserable, keep you miserable. Be happy. Besides, even the birds wake up early to chirp.

geoffmatheson: Advantage gained on a second turn blunder: 2Nf3....

Sat, 07 Jul 2012 03:25:45 -0400

geoffmatheson:

Advantage gained on a second turn blunder: 2Nf3. This was the end position.

1.d4 | e5

2.Nf3? | e4!

3.Ne5 | d6

4.Nc4 | d5

5.Ne5 | c6

2. dxe5 | Nc6
3. Nf3 | Qe7
4. Qd5

White should win pretty easily after this. Even Qb4+ is nothing to worry about. I used to play the Englund Gambit, props to black for playing it.

Creeping old friends blogs cause no one will talk to.

Fri, 06 Jul 2012 19:06:40 -0400

Creeping old friends blogs cause no one will talk to.

Will someone talk to me please? I don’t want to feel alone right now.

Sun, 24 Jun 2012 04:14:44 -0400

Will someone talk to me please? I don’t want to feel alone right now.

les-baleines: Let us all take a moment and appreciate these...

Wed, 20 Jun 2012 17:24:39 -0400

les-baleines:

Let us all take a moment and appreciate these tremendous dorks and the way they propose/respond to proposals.

THIS MADE ME SO HAPPY. GOT TO WATCH FMA NOW.

hey Ive known you all my life

Tue, 19 Jun 2012 04:40:12 -0400

hey Ive known you all my life

and this is crazy

but its equivalent exchange

so give me half your life maybe

We decided to return to our bodies together for sure.We’re...

Mon, 18 Jun 2012 20:28:54 -0400

We decided to return to our bodies together for sure.
We’re going to be moving forward!

Photo

Mon, 18 Jun 2012 20:28:25 -0400

Cough Syrup + pain killers + alcohol = me trying to die, but not having my heart stop. It seems as...

Mon, 18 Jun 2012 20:26:22 -0400

Cough Syrup + pain killers + alcohol = me trying to die, but not having my heart stop. It seems as if not even God, if there is one, will let me die. I don’t want to sound grandiose, but maybe I’m meant to do something, something real good. Something to help others, or make this emptiness go away. Whatever it is, I’m here for a reason, and that’s good enough for me.

even-after-so-long: The Passing of Time [x] -Photos edited with...

Sun, 10 Jun 2012 19:17:08 -0400

even-after-so-long:

The Passing of Time [x] -Photos edited with picmonkey

I’m going to miss high school so much. I don’t want it to end. I’ll never get to...

Sun, 10 Jun 2012 19:16:50 -0400

I’m going to miss high school so much. I don’t want it to end. I’ll never get to see my friends every day, learn new things and goof off as much as I have in these last 5 years. This is tearing me up inside.

To explain withdrawals in my Psychology homework, I decided that using “it keeps you feeling...

Wed, 30 May 2012 21:42:43 -0400

To explain withdrawals in my Psychology homework, I decided that using “it keeps you feeling shitty” would suffice. God damn it, need to start over now.

I told my parents I want to be dead today. I told them I was going to kill myself. My dad still...

Tue, 29 May 2012 23:56:26 -0400

I told my parents I want to be dead today. I told them I was going to kill myself. My dad still ended up making it my fault as I hadn’t told them soon enough. My mom didn’t understand. I couldn’t explain. It sucked. I told them that I’d finish up school work as there is only 3 weeks until school is over. I don’t know if I told the truth, I planned to jump off a bridge anyways so it would be pointless to do it. Maybe that’s why I’ll do it. For no reason at all. Except that’ll lead my parents to believe I’ll still be here. I don’t want to lie anymore. I just want everything to stop.

abscidium: I hate my stomach and my thighs. I hate my hair and my teeth. I hate how my clothes look...

Tue, 29 May 2012 23:51:09 -0400

abscidium:

I hate my stomach and my thighs. I hate my hair and my teeth. I hate how my clothes look on me. I hate my voice. I hate how I talk to people. I hate that everything gets to me and I care too much. I hate that I’m never smart enough. I just want to be everything that I’m not.

Photo

Sun, 04 Mar 2012 02:02:25 -0500

Hey Robert. Just wanted to let you know I recently came across a rat at EM. It was pretty sweet if I do say so myself. Take care man, I won't say good luck, I'll say don't give up. There is always hope.

Tue, 24 Jan 2012 16:13:24 -0500

Haha, I put that up a while ago. I have much work to be done.

close to death.

Sat, 24 Dec 2011 05:01:00 -0500

Gute nacht mein freund, how are y’all? I’m alright, thought about jumping off a bridge tonight, ‘cause I wanted to die. Thirty minutes before I got to the bridge, because I was walking there, I met this man named Santino, and he was so much like me, yet 4 years older, and it made me feel okay nowhere there was someone like me, who understood me. I’m not homosexual, and it’s alright to be, but it was just so awesome to know thought the way I did and felt as if everything had come crashing down. One man, literally by saying “Hey, what’s up?”, stopped me from killing myself. One man just knowing I was upset, saved my my life. It’s pretty good knowing one person can change the way you feel. God bless you Santino, for you are my saviour. Maybe I’m just drunk, but this is the best thing that could have happened to me. Thank you so much Santino, I will never be able to thank you enough.

-R

pondering.

Wed, 21 Dec 2011 00:21:37 -0500

Do you realize in a day how much time you waste thinking about things that will never happen, or things you can’t change? Jiminy fucking christmas it’s a lot. I legitimately think for about 20 minutes I wondered if it was acceptable for me to ask someone if I could leave their going away party for a bit to go have a cigarette with my friends, and that happened over a year ago. Christ almighty. And it’s funny because you can tell when other people are doing it too, they get that weird look and their eyes go into that questioning mode when they look up to the side. Anyways, more to come.

-R

truth.

Mon, 19 Dec 2011 04:54:53 -0500

We’re not meant to be upstanding. You nor I are meant to be a perfect breed. People will build you up, then let you down, lie, cheat and steal everything from you. You should get used to it. We are all as bad as the next one beside us. We all have the means, just not the same intentions. Sure, there’s a few people who are nice, but you and I, we aren’t. We’re one the same. Go look in the mirror and try to find how you aren’t as bad as me. We’re both sinners. I’m Greed, Wrath and Pride. You’re Lust, Envy and Sloth. If anything, we got more things in common than the major religions do. I’d shed not tears, so neither should you. Shed some light instead, upon yourself. You look a little dark.

quote.

Thu, 06 Oct 2011 23:51:28 -0400

“I want to travel forward in time to when I’m about to hang myself. Then when my future self is stepping down, I’ll kick the stool, just to know I could do it”.